Who am I looking at?

Sometimes, when I've been drinking, I'll go to the bathroom and do my business but on the way out, when I glance in the mirror... I get a feeling like someone's watching me. It seems the more I drink, the more I sneer at the mirror on my way out. Who am I sneering at--me or someone greater than me? Am I looking at what I think I should be, or at what others think I should be? Do I sneer out of resentment, rebellion, shame, or something altogether different? I do not know.